Dating and disappointments. The double DD's.
How do you begin a blog with that kind of a title? Not sure, but here I go. Listen to me world, I am coming at ya.
Post Ann's passing I thought that dating was completely out of the picture. Non-existent and what not. I felt like my situation was something hard for a person to understand from the get go. I mean really is there a way to kinda go out in the world and say "hey, I'm a happy person trying to move on after such a devastating event." Umm, no. It's hard to find someone who really understands you. This is a proven fact. You don't want to get sympathy every second. This is something that really takes time to heal.
At a recent point I decided that I need to do this dating thing all over again. In no way I want to sound desperate and put all my dating woes on the web, and expose some kind of creature who is desperate for attention. That's not me. In fact I like to keep it mum (yeah right.) The only thing I don't keep mum about is my feelings. Yeah, those feelings of greatness when you meet an amazing person, or the feelings you come across when shit hits the fan and you are back at square one. The whole dating scene is insane. Perhaps that's why I've avoided it. But those aren't the factors why I've avoided it, well maybe. It's just complicated.
This blog seems to have no point to the title, but here it goes AGAIN: dear me, why fall for a person, when it's just going to disappoint you. When you put the walls down, and let someone know you so much. When you think this is possible, but now seems impossible. Sigh.
Hey, I sorta gave it a shot. Warmed up to a person, and got shot down. Boom. Another lesson learned. I just felt like I invested too much, perhaps? But things happen. Carry on right?
I'm optimistic. My mom once told someone, that even after what I've gone through, she just wishes that a right man would come along and would just make me happy for the rest of my life. Because after the rain there is sun. That's what I keep in mind. I want to be happy because that's what my mom wants for me. Ideally, happiness is something we all strive for.
Meanwhile, I'll be patient and wait for my turn.
Hey dating or whatever you are, you genuinely suck. As for you prince charming, please stick to Disney movies, I beg to differ that you exist.
Silly blog, you make no sense, but I feel better letting it all out.
Post Ann's passing I thought that dating was completely out of the picture. Non-existent and what not. I felt like my situation was something hard for a person to understand from the get go. I mean really is there a way to kinda go out in the world and say "hey, I'm a happy person trying to move on after such a devastating event." Umm, no. It's hard to find someone who really understands you. This is a proven fact. You don't want to get sympathy every second. This is something that really takes time to heal.
At a recent point I decided that I need to do this dating thing all over again. In no way I want to sound desperate and put all my dating woes on the web, and expose some kind of creature who is desperate for attention. That's not me. In fact I like to keep it mum (yeah right.) The only thing I don't keep mum about is my feelings. Yeah, those feelings of greatness when you meet an amazing person, or the feelings you come across when shit hits the fan and you are back at square one. The whole dating scene is insane. Perhaps that's why I've avoided it. But those aren't the factors why I've avoided it, well maybe. It's just complicated.
This blog seems to have no point to the title, but here it goes AGAIN: dear me, why fall for a person, when it's just going to disappoint you. When you put the walls down, and let someone know you so much. When you think this is possible, but now seems impossible. Sigh.
Hey, I sorta gave it a shot. Warmed up to a person, and got shot down. Boom. Another lesson learned. I just felt like I invested too much, perhaps? But things happen. Carry on right?
I'm optimistic. My mom once told someone, that even after what I've gone through, she just wishes that a right man would come along and would just make me happy for the rest of my life. Because after the rain there is sun. That's what I keep in mind. I want to be happy because that's what my mom wants for me. Ideally, happiness is something we all strive for.
Meanwhile, I'll be patient and wait for my turn.
Hey dating or whatever you are, you genuinely suck. As for you prince charming, please stick to Disney movies, I beg to differ that you exist.
Silly blog, you make no sense, but I feel better letting it all out.
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